Alright folks. We're here.
One week to go until I go under the knife. July 26th is the big day. This is the last you'll hear from me until after the surgery is over. I was originally told it was a 9 hour surgery, but now I was told it could be over 11 hours long. That is quite a long time to be under anesthesia.
The reality of what I'm about to go through is sinking in. I haven't been sleeping well and I keep having awful dreams. The dr thankfully gave me some xanax to take the day before or I'm not sure I'd make it in there. I took my 6 prescriptions to be filled. It makes me nervous that I was given anxiety meds for after the surgery. Am I going to be so scared and in pain that I'll be panicking?
I'm not so nervous about going under (though of course you have thoughts like, maybe I won't wake up!) but I'm terrified about the moment I do wake up. I'll be in the ICU with tubes down my throat and wires all plugged into me...and of course the pain...I hope I can handle this. Each day is going to be more anxiety ridden from here on out. I wish it was tomorrow so I could just get it over with.
I'm going in to meet the anesthesiologist on Wednesday and discuss the risks of being under so long. I'm sure that'll terrify me all the more.
I would greatly appreciate prayers for strength to get through this, for peace of mind, for God's guidance of the doctor's hands, and for a quick recovery. I believe in the power of prayer and I know God will be the support I need to overcome this. I pray this surgery is going to work and that I don't have any major complications.
Thank you for your love and support! I'll write again in a couple weeks with some pictures and updates on my recovery!
One week to go until I go under the knife. July 26th is the big day. This is the last you'll hear from me until after the surgery is over. I was originally told it was a 9 hour surgery, but now I was told it could be over 11 hours long. That is quite a long time to be under anesthesia.
The reality of what I'm about to go through is sinking in. I haven't been sleeping well and I keep having awful dreams. The dr thankfully gave me some xanax to take the day before or I'm not sure I'd make it in there. I took my 6 prescriptions to be filled. It makes me nervous that I was given anxiety meds for after the surgery. Am I going to be so scared and in pain that I'll be panicking?
I'm not so nervous about going under (though of course you have thoughts like, maybe I won't wake up!) but I'm terrified about the moment I do wake up. I'll be in the ICU with tubes down my throat and wires all plugged into me...and of course the pain...I hope I can handle this. Each day is going to be more anxiety ridden from here on out. I wish it was tomorrow so I could just get it over with.
I'm going in to meet the anesthesiologist on Wednesday and discuss the risks of being under so long. I'm sure that'll terrify me all the more.
I would greatly appreciate prayers for strength to get through this, for peace of mind, for God's guidance of the doctor's hands, and for a quick recovery. I believe in the power of prayer and I know God will be the support I need to overcome this. I pray this surgery is going to work and that I don't have any major complications.
Thank you for your love and support! I'll write again in a couple weeks with some pictures and updates on my recovery!
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